6 days

guess i'll be blogging more for the next 6 days...just 6 days left...am i emo about it?no....am i scared about it?yes but not yet....haha it was quite fun huh....just a bit expensive..

lets tok bout sth more optimistic...bball chalet..bbq was normal..more den enuf food...but as usual our fire cmi...lol den on top of the food some kids gave us more...they were nxt to us..and one of them was eileen's sister....i heard sum1 call me and i turn bak...den i was like whu is tis uh.....but i just wave back and sae hi....aft like 10 s den i remeber it was eileen's sister....she has grown to be mature and pretty according to bernard...

den there was the drinking game....wat the...calvin sabo me...told everione to...itx quite a fun game actuali...i drank quite a bit....vodaka vanilla wif sprite...not a match trust me...taste like antibiotics..beer is still the best!!ah peh style..lol so it was mr and mrs chia sabo-ing alex to drink and drink......and of cos my best friend medin whu made me drink loads...

played poker aft dat...wasnt fun....oh well i dun tink alcohol helps to relief ur stress and problems...dat chinese saying...itx so fake cos i just kept on tinking about pointless things...lost in poker me n medin...suay kias..LOL tis sucks huh....den they go slp liao wat the wat the wat the rite..all play a while nia den go slp liao imbal imbal imbal...den can stone nia...so medin mk ber n me left in the morning by taxi!!!to home....reach home at 7 plus...couldnt slp...fuck it....den 1 plsu wake up le...

after xome persuasion by zhen kai i decided to gof or the class bbq....all the boys gng ma...go see my ffriendss...oh well 4j did seem a bit more bonded today...

i nid a song to suit my mood now...i like songs according to my mood...wooots i'm emofied

i tink i'm feeling better now...lol....

i am logical person u noe i noe somethings r totally impossible...but there always exists some part of me dat is gng against logic....angel vs devil....

i wish i had sum1 to tok to...sum1 to gif me advice...but i wonder anione dat will be able to help me...and gif some advice dat will aid me....i doubt anione understands tis...in the end itx still myself....and i haf to find a way out myself...

me myself and nobody else..i noe wat to do....

i screw my own life....yupz...filled wif mistakes wif regrets..

fuck tis i noe it my own fault fuck this and dat....am so vexed..i wish sum1 can tok to me