dwell on it

sometimes i reali cant help tinking bout the mistake i made for the last paper..if i had juz read the question for another min...zz

life is so boredddd now?aft prelims dun haf anyth to do...no where to go oso leh...i reali duno where to go liao not the type of romantic and creative kind...so life is juz a big BORE now...

friday is interesting when u try to impersoante the best player in the world...dats wat 'I' did aft scoring dat 3 point foul in..LOL

so we haf been trying to do it the KOBE way u noe aft he said"the 3 point line is too near" during the olympics...i hit a few during the start of tis gimmick but aft dat lose power liao lol...itx damn funnnnnnn

okay i wonder where i should go 2ml...so boring mayb start studying for maths la hor...H1 summore oh my wat a loser..cant even pass it..

life is so complicated

i'm sick agn...i believe itx due to the person whu was coughing nonstop during the hist test sitting beside me...for one thx for breaking my train of thoughts for 2 th for giving me this though my immunity system is oso questionable...

itx over

itx over the prelims dat some dread while i juz take quite in my stride...okay overall feel is that gp and maths are goners i wun be able to keep my posiion for geog...theres goes a B and econs i'm quite optimistic...C?

juz finish history today....for SEAsian was quite bad...laz nite i din slp a wink not becos i was studying but i juz couldnt slp...duno y...so i ended up taking the paper feeling amn groggy...haixxx sbq was a flop i wrote half page den redo...den came the last essay..i was dng fine u noe keeping within the 45 mins marks...it was down to the last...i wrote 1 page le...i reread the ques 3 times and decided i was out of point..left wif 25 mins i decided i shall do the other ques since it was like i duno how to do the current ques...

so i attempted sth which i wasnt veh confident in....aft the test did i realise that wat i actuali wrote was actuali coorrect...haix...if i did dat i would haf easily gotten a B damn sure....oh dam it...it quite sad la...25 mins on an essay...no time de...haix my B another one fly...

i din study for econs at all

i did geog briefly

i did hist briefly

popiiiiiii

watching lan qiu huo and feeling frigging tired...tink i wil go n shower n slp soon...now all the show revolves along love triangles and the different in status...always the same..always touching too...itx nice too..mayb juz a lil short..heard itx only 13 episodes..i shall enjoy life for a few days..like a week??dan i shall study....

so the shows tells the rich pwns the poor...and of cos the question of which female lead is prettier...lol the coach W or the young student jie er...but the portryal of chracter reali puts W at the losing end and she looks too old...jie er is juz pretty cute and innocent...haha

cant wait for tis friday to come hope it wun rain..

prelims

prelims is of no significnace to me...i duno y...not like i still haf a lot of time left...but i'm confident..i tink i can finish it in a month...the easier subjects are int hist and econs only?lol...okay...the pain in the ass is actually all the other subjects..

okay so 2out of 4 failures now...i din do well for physical geog but i gues i can pass...zzz i can do well for it de or...the stupid trade winds...i was too fast too judge...too rash le la..go home n tink den i remember...grrr nvm..

aft dat when to town to get a present...it din come cheap...a ripcurl jumper..lol was deciding between a addidas orginal and another girl ripgurl jumper but the ipcurl wasnt dat nice...so i went to the guys side and found a veh nice and cool one....but dun haf the size...but heck la i juz buy it...cos it was damn nice?but i doubt can fit la....itx too big...den i went down and saw the addidas original one again...it looked dam nice..zzzzz...i tink itx the avaliability of the size there?oh welll if too big den go change ba...ah well itx friday but itz alrite to disclose here..hope she likes it...and hope it will be a SURPRISE

int hist 2ml..havent reali study alot leh..duno how..still got SBQ and the start of CW....and theres USA mach ltr wooots...YAO lost..how sad..if u r injured den dun play ba...pointless dragging ur mates along...theres Bolt to look forward to ltr too..if everyth thing goes well he's gona get his double...and team USA will win Australia and i hope kobe does sth greatttt finally

cant wait for friday..ur birthday and i get to play bball again...lol...

friends

had my ears plugged to those very old songs i like..i guess itx becos i grew up listening to them, the ones we got me started listening to music..i know them so well even aft this years dat i can still remember the lyrics...i stop my geoging and start thinking agn

i look like a serious joker but i myself think that i am a thinker..haha when i'm alone quiet in my own world i juz go into thoughts...okay i tink itx becos of the old songs that make u reminisince

i was reading geog so my first tot was geog..even geog as a subjects shows me being different from the elites?in RV i remeber everione studying hard for physical geog they said it was much easier compared to human geog...of 4 essay questions pple usually do 3 physical 1 human...

i concentrated on human geog instead..i reali couldnt take physical geog memorizing all those stuff..human geog was a like a breeze not much to memorize and quite common sensical i reali did like geog den it was easier compared to sci and maths....the mcq were like 50-50 to me and i happen to scored my ONLY A wif it A2 summore...lets not take chinese into the pic la huh...

so smart pple chose sci while i chose arts...was it the rite choice?a definte yes for me..but theres stil physical geog stil SEAsian hist dat nids memory work...life would not haf been so hard so embarrassing so unhappy if i had a choice to leave out the sci subjects during the o lvls...never?juz excuses for being lazy

it suddenly popped into my mind wat u said "if u had a galfriend u wun be toking to me animore"
i said, no i will it wun reali matter or affect or anyth but u were so sure i could sense it..but no dats untrue other circumstances played the role

we use to be friends whu could understand each other..to me it was a feat...we were veh much 'cyber' friends we din reali noe each other well in real life...but we juz clicked most of the time u helping me out...lol...but i guess i was good too!

i wonder why i haf this split personality...in reality and on msn...itz juz 2 different personality...so wat am i...i love to help pple on msn watever the situation was..haha tis side of me had been rather rare i guess i dun initiate conversations in short i dun chat wif pple on msn..it has become quite useless...

pple judge u by wat u do in real life not wat u do on msn...so itx a fair judgement on me...i understand my personality..i make more enemies den friends...yet the only group of friends i am reali comfortable wif are reali those whu had gone thru the 4 years of sweat and pain tgt...or mayb sumtimes when i am playing basketball wif those i noe...which usually happens to be the same group of pple..lol

i enjoy those moments when pple used to share their problems wif me...itx always gd to lend a listening ear rite?and help pple out of their troubles..i still remember a few cos there were not reali much of these situation la hor...uhh time to go back to studying geog..2 years here...wat friends haf i made?

few i guess and none dat i am reali comfortable wif...there was one i reali wished to help..but no..itx pain dat i had not gone thru..sth so sudden...yet i tink i wil b ale to cope wif it...itx due to my extreme selfishness

i seriously suspect i haf mild autism..

i guess i was taken aback due to a cetain sense of shunning..

i dun like to bug pple...dun like to tok to them or help them if not i will be seen as being overly curious being a busybody being kpo...cos i hate tis kind of pple n dunwan to be one of them..therefore when pple show any sign of reluctance itx likely dat i wun tok to them agn...

oh well i guess as usual...only i noe wat i am toking about again...those whu decipher are PRO

thx jiarong for sending me all the jay songs but wat i reali wanted was feng only?lol...

so wat haf i lost becos of the development of a relationship?

friends...an alternative listening ear...chances to make friends...to play basketball..opportunity costs..haha..

itx sad to see sum1 to so suffer dat doesnt deserves it and to make it worse receive no help...dun u tink so?

i thank the songs for giving me the chance to look back at things...

army-phobic

i juz reali dun wish to go i wish i broke aleg or sth right aft the a lvls or diagnose wif color blind or sth i reali dunwan to go now...i cant imagine wat will happen...as we tok about it now the mood is always gloom itx not the ghostly stuff it wat will happen to use aft 1 and a half years...for the first like 15 weeks i wun be able to come out dat make up to around 4 months...and den aft dat u can only leave for a day every week....haixx problems problems...i duno wat to do

itx tis week my prelims but i not not even studying i'm dun belong to those hypocrites dat study and sae they dun...i reali din...i wonder wat will happen...but i guess i'll be fine...

god gif me a solution to tis problem pls

how?

59/100 58/100

oh my god oh my gawd itx the subject i happe to like the most but den again not reali wat i like is the sutdy ofCold War not the rise of the global economy the rise of japanese economy nor is it about SEA history which is so 'content full' itx scary i wonder how i should be able to finish it...aniwae the results are not acceptable

on the lighter note mr hendri haf pointed out my mistakes and i kinda of know the way of writing an 18/25 essay now?i hope i can do it...i juz tink he has been a brillant teacher veh sociable caring and always protecting us and getting us out of trouble...

haf been travelling to the library daily but dng nth?itz reali bad but aft getting bak my int hist results today i reali felt the nid and the urge to start?prelims start nxt week but i am not panicking i duno y...other JCs start much ltr and the students r alreadi in full force le...

wat bout me?i feel rdy for econs?application is nth i'm only afraid of the content question u noe like describing watever theory or structure...geog?i wonder how am i gng to do it seriously juz read once and go for the test?itz the likely strategy for now..i'm reali jealous of those whu haf photographic memory...

hist!i believe i can do INT in a day but SEA will be a chore lets see wat we can do bout it??maths i kinda of gif up due to our maths teacher's greatness

GP is reali of my concern my GP sucks i nid help mr hendri asked me to approach her for help but i wonder...to me language has always been sth teachers cant help me wif to e it was always about fitnesse i tot i had it but itx not there animore?itx reali sad to see it gng downhill

to the library 2ml!i bet work will be done when i am alone?

woots

had a wonderful friday whheeeee playing bball wif rvbball is veh much different very...enjoyed it a lot and itx quite addictive wish tis can happen frequently...

i tink u r a joke everything i do u wana try to compete wif me to me itx veh disgusting for one u r juz following ewww er xin laaaaaaaaaaaaa i cant stand it when i tink of it like juz trying to compete wif u i dun nid it juz siam mann okay it was juz a veh simple thing like i play game wif a person X he nids to follow suit cos mayb he tinks me n him r hitting off well he cant take it and wans to be part of it...puiiii rite???okay another scenario when a bhnch of us r chatting he will come along and she mo wat u all sawe and trys to chup in sumtimes we will juz ignore him...LOL it juz keeps happening puiiiiii...i salute u for gng to tuition for mugging hard but u r so far behind i turn bak and i cant see u nosey parker teachers' ass sucker award winner

study break!break from all this things wonder when i will start studying...2ml is a bad start got hist things...zzz lan qiu huo sth to look forward to?tink it wil be better den dou niu ba not so much love n stuff...juz more bball