enjoy life

2009-10-17T22:24:00.000-07:00

instead of running and gng to the gym i've been playing basketball more often zzz lol....only went to the gym once.

feeling sick nw wth.

2009-10-11T06:48:00.000-07:00

a hole in the chest

ehhh lies shyt anyth said.

die bk in.i cfm cui.nth to do cfm die.

cant blame the loneliness setting in.

aniwaei haf2 things in mind dat i tot i will nv do.

i'm tinking whether to learn bike riding a not.zzz dats for like ah beng but i tink it quite cool.itx viable.itx cheaper.itx sth i can afford.

the 2nd things is giving free tuition like for pri sch maths or sth i tink there r pple whu needs help out there mayb they r jsut less previlege.

itx just one of the feeling dat i wana be there for whoever whu nids help.becos no one deserves to feel like dat.

run.gym.

2 books from the library!i cant find the 2 i found ytd la wtf.

2009-10-09T17:13:00.000-07:00

sometimes i tink my english reali rocks.but my spelling reali sucks.oh dats random if i read more books mayb i will haf gd english man.itx raining nw wth.early in the morning.

aniwae sth reali unpleasant happen ytd and i was reali quite unprepared for it.i woke p wif a reali weird dream den BOOMZ the thing came.taken by a storm but how.suck thumb la.lifes like dat.

okay the clearing must start soon liao.

work gng to start soon oso cannot slack animore guess it might reali be quite straining for me all the brain work and planning.sucks eh..

actuali i'm not reali feeling dat gd.it just like falling in a hole once again.hate dat feeling just dat tis time itx a bit worse.just waiting for myself to hit the btm b4 i climb out of it.

one thing is i experienced it b4 and now im more or less more matured.

i just tink itx pretty unfair and fucked up yupz

i guess i might haf to depend on chocolates to kip alive nw just hope the ants stop eating them du lan sia.

i bought one box of vanhouten chocs.vintage metal box and the ants still got in.wth.10 buckssss

new pay heard it 1087...hope can cover wat i spend last month on all the nonsense i duno wat.

sian i only hope dog was lying but i noe he's not.

there she goes!

2009-09-27T04:28:00.000-07:00

finally grew sick of the song you belong wif me.lol

NEXt hahas another taylor swift song.whitehorse.

different phase different song to suit the mood.songs usually sound better when it suits ur mood

sian gng to bk in wish i can bring tis song along wif me but i dun haf a music player.

hahas oh god i hai medin and zav lose 55 dollars each cos i nv go buy their aos...hahas.....nooo

i'm not a princess this aint a fairytale.im not the one u sweep off the feet leaving at the stair

stupid gal shouldve known shoudve known.

emoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

must keep away la -_-

zzz

time to issue a restraining order!

2009-09-25T05:03:00.000-07:00

and i am gng gaga over sth i cant get.sucks.

buttons the happiest man.y?cos he has jessica machibata zzz

rights things r gng to start soon and i dun reali wan it to start tink i still haf a few days of leave nw wonder how to use it

these days can ask me anyth bout the news i read everyth other den money twice.dat includes classified.lol

finsh my book!Men In White.

true dat most singaporeans should read it.gives us a brief look into how singapore was built!quite an ardous task i guess

but i tot the book was a little irrelevant aft the halfway mark.it started to get brief and made the book boring.overrated i must sae it failed to gif me an objective view a different story.

i had enuf of success stories.rather i wana haf a look at how things failed.

the singapore dream hahas oh my god everione wans to win toto!right?hahas.

wheres my knight in shing armour.

2009-09-20T01:38:00.000-07:00

found a place to emo lols new place so i'll bring CHAOS AND WHINES HERE

i dun haf th epatience so i lost 30 bucks WTF but money doesnt much matter now.finding a new goal seems more impt now -_- life is too boring liao so many things i dnwan to take a step first and do it or sometimes too lazy!lololol

k pls decide i'm gng to get an itouch so can go online mayb.

aniwae watever!!fine watch inglorious basterds itx veh artsy i must sae some meaning behind duno whether should read into it a not lols but it does have some crude humour

2ml gng out yesssss see some gals.LOL

2009-09-17T23:42:00.001-07:00

some how or rather i tink i am dng stupid tings...i am so unsettled now i duno wat to do again!dats y my life has always been so screwed up!!haha

and u had to screw it up more -_-

but i haf came out wif one goal to race fats wif hair.and i noe the hair will win lols wth nv been able to do it..JIAN FEi.

aniwae i am pretty sick itx stopping me from hitting the track isnt dat a great excuse!aft running a bit one tues nite almost died wth.all the phlegm tavel to my lungs or sth..and it got seriously worse....oh boy.

somehow or rather i've awaoken leh...isnt time powerful.feels like the march bak to camp when i went for warrior i noe i can do it but it will take time the SGTs were pushing me to go faster but my legs were so painful but i told them i wun gif up.of cos i din -_- but all i can sae it was just a slow and fucking painful thing.well draw the similarities

the best female video of the year just got to watch it and itx a song which has stayed in my head but i din go and get it from friends but aft listening to it i reali had to get it liao lol.....got it from zav....and i like the song!and theres new songs by susan boyle.she can reali sing man but itx too much from me draws me into further solitude.itx called white horse i tink quite classical and reali well sung.

taylor swifts pwns shes quite chio but still cant beat hudgens HAHA oh well i'm so bored tis few days but had a few tasks though.such as GP lols the ferry fucking stinks cos of sweaty people and and and i took the ferry so many damn times zzz

dreaming bout the day u wake up and find
that what u've been looking for has been here the whole time
if u could see that i;m the one who understands u
been here all laong so y cant u seeeee
you belong wif me
standing by and waiting at ur back door
all this time how could u not noe baby.

for one it will always remain a dream and two i wun understand u true i've been here all along not true dat u belong to me and i'm too freaking far from ur bak door and u will nv noee

if taylor swifts comes to singapore for a performance i will go!haha i swear oh boy tis song pwns better den love story!!wheeee kinda of feel better aft listening to tis song

alright gng to take my hot magazine to hunt for some nice songs on youtube.

uh ive been making so much wrong choices in life wats wrong wif another.

2009-09-13T08:13:00.000-07:00

2weeks of stupid shyt woohoo and i am done posted to HQ duno whether itx a blessing anot hope to take some things back from the nxt 1 years plus in army since i got my rank le.but i cant use it cos no recruits.but i reali wanted to be a gd SGT whu ask me unfit.sian

been freaking bored?i am so bored like reali bored.i haf no itouch and my psp isnt rdy.zzz.wth.....k got a book men in white.i tink it wn be much la theres a extent u can write till if not u will be charged lols dats how things go here.but itx a new perspective!

time to visit the library and stuff read history and some psychology stuff mayb cant go NUS den haf to go NTU psychology...sucked it up whu ask me to be dumb well time to self enrich and mayb slim down a lil build some muscles but i tink i'm making a lil progress!run more play more!

i'm so freaking bored in camp la like nw even worse gng to haf no one to tok to and my phone is dead??!!nv vibrating imbal sad no friends.wtf.

saw a pretty sick video on youtube wonder if itx real lol.

lets do away wif fiction time to step into reality!i tink itx workingggggg

ouch my thumb injured again sian.nxt friday bkout hope it comes soonnnnnn

make my phone vibrate zzz

2009-08-28T06:31:00.000-07:00

1 weeks le.aft taiwan...

it wasnt easy the terrain was new we all endured i did.i gave a bit of effort to help.it was the last thing for our platoon sth i can do.....

warrior was hard no wonder we can be called sispec warriors nw.

typhoon came things got delayed.real wind guys real rain..nv likei've seen b4.

i noe the mood isnt right nw typing tis.i'm just sad nw.again.

i'm 3rd sgt alex nw.soc done.but no itx still emptiness filling me.

dat sunday wanted to go down to tok to bballers but was too tired and lazy.haha hope to get the chance soon

i missed the parade i was still branded a failure den.i wanted to make my mum proud to attend tis parade but sad.

it was impt.i din passout it sucks all my friends there.i hate parade but parade marks an ending u dun go u dun feel like u haf pass out.

almost died in taiwan...luckily sum pple lacked behind and we had to wait for them
if not we would haf been swallowed by the landslide it was a majestic sight.taking place right infront of u.it was scary.hahax

free me from this pain.

i survived taiwan thank you sgt jeffrey for his teeachings
sgt heng kiang for walking the last walk wif me the imbal one
2WO tan for his knowledge
OC for everyth i respect him alot.
and 2IC of course his passion and dedication.

there r thing in life u dunwan to accept but no u must learn how to

isnt tis the 2ml u asked for.isnt it.ask urself be trueful to urself.

i noe it is unintentional but it when u do sth dat is unintentional dats shows how truthful sth is the denial means nth.i assume i analyze and when tis combines it is potent and oso fucked up.i tink i am gd so itx potent not fucked up. ha i'm a joke pls.

dats wats gng to make 2nite imbal

reflect now.be honest to urself and of cos be logical.i just haf to be logical and easily the answer is seen and known.

today i am 19 and 6 months old.i am now making the choice to cripple myself.but itx the logical choice.

i assume making an ass out of you and me tis part of me has reali caused so much probs uh but other den dat logic itx logic logic logic

uh now i must tell myself this...stop lying to urself.

and i looked at tis nick on msn learning has nv been so painful mr forgel's nick.making sense nw.

k la duno where i will be posted to.BMTC or SISPEC lols.omg the sudden change.heard pple up there not veh happy k sispec is not bad just stressful and haf to go overseas?z right.lets prepare for a gd one nw.

2009-07-31T21:16:00.001-07:00

woke up wif a reali bad dream....crap.....and i was reali slpy...wanted to continue slping...but for reasons i got out of bed....damn slpy....but i only woke up to be disappointed.... i dunwan to fly...i dunwan to go and die...omg the breifing was lik wth man....."u guys r gng to a *********plantations there is a lot ********* snakes and they r veh poisonous...WTF???

k tis a big time joke"last batch 2 trainess got bitten by scorpions"

k loads of stuff but i forgot alr........and like wtf they gave us condoms....tink we will end up playing wif them when everyth ends in the hotel...lollike filll it up wif water or sth....i dun see any of my mates gng to nid them....

itx gng to be full of bullshyt itx gng to suck....i dunwan to go

in sucha emo mood again.......so in the end whu's gng to be there........like nobody....so where r u nw?nowhere.....

just interested in dng ur own stuff again.....oh wellls...haf fun at ur fucked up party....thats gng to be the last straw man....plus itx today....haf u ever heard of such a thing??no itx shows how uncommitted u r....sucks

sad i'm not gng to send anyth over man....nope!hahax

omg apparently sms costs 60 cents each from there to singapore and 1 min tink is 1.20 lol....wth.....

well done u.....

2009-07-28T04:15:00.000-07:00

4 more days haha.....omg......

cant believe i am arguing over tis.......so do i consider tis a won or a lost deep inside i reali dunwan u to go but den again applying logic and some sense of unselfishness or perharps normal tinking...just go ba....k cmoplicated lousy sentence structure things only i can understand once again....

but tis is wat tis is for...for me to look bak and read and noe wat happen.....okay but my eng is not dat bad is it.lol...i'll gif u dat A for GP if u gif me dat A for hist.i wun mind a C

so sad nw again! like an emoturtle aka zh..wth lol....his blog is like farni i cant believe those retards scolding him and stuff....wth man....and apparently he's gng for a gal lol....k he's a poor thing man...hope he's dng well....

and oh boy wat did i do tis 2 days....cant believe it!but i guess itx nth much oso la haha....just a few questions dats all....both times same person....wth is tis....so did i make the wrong desicions twice....yes i look at u...my choices haf i screwed up all of them....

bells r ringing only to me...making sense only to me.....uhh wtf no friends.wth.

2 different lives we will nv be able to understand each other how many times haf i repeated tis....

i was so bored i went to sign up for a twitter account and i tink no one in my hotmail has it cos i cant trace ani1...lol......wth...tis is lame.

if i just happen to stray things might just go crazy.....y do u trust me i wonder....but sry i cant gif u dat trust man...i cant explain tis....

i'm gng off to a faraway jail nw...to go thru a different kind of endurance called field endurance when the world is urbanizing at tis amazing rate...wheres the logic...

k lets be frank life inside is not dat bad other den outfield...eliminate dat u might just haf more people signing on....hahahx
oh my....
god
wth
is
tis
bullshit
so stress
i just wana pass soc nw
i dunwan my CSB badge
i wana passout
save the money u guys gif me

and just sum1 there whu reali cares.is it still u.or just anione nw.
i'm nt a flirt
nt wild
nt a clubber
so itxj ust anione genuine pretty cute and my style...dats so rare and unlikely anione will approach...lol.....k weird tots...

nt like it din happen b4 but unlikely it will again...

wat randomness and toking to myself....dats wat happen when u dun haf sum1 to tok to when u r not exactly in a relationship....

19 years alr i guess i reali din haf sum1 like dat b4!!or mayb i did.

and wheres the mood for a poem

truth inside lies outside...uhh i am not as smart as i used to be....

booooooking in to do soc to do ippt y am i so fat wat happen to those days.....hahax........y izit like dat.....i just wan to pass soc.....thx pls...

welcome to taiwan.

2009-07-24T23:58:00.000-07:00

oh wow i dlt-ed a few entries....anything to do wif relation to men in green wif little hair and make to haf no sense of logic. lol....

bad day i failed soc again same station again...nv able to pass it..fucking ropes.....

2 months 3 crashes 538 dead and counting i believe there was like one or 2 more crashed dat happen...lol i cant believe i am not flying SIA seriously itx the best the most safe....

emo........how many oil lamps do i haf to pick up to fufil my needs not luxuries mind u...hahax....

i cant find a gd enuf song to suit my mood....so hard to be able to...reali...

i had so many tots dat filled my mind just nw but i reali cant tink of any of them nw....

time has reali been scarce....out in the real world...away from tis legal jail....i cant see when i will get a break from tis...even sch students gets a break now and den...y not us?

3 weeks u came and gone too fast i guess.....one cockster in my bunk said some lame things to set my mind in motion..."wah the SOC damn shag uh i run until i wan to die....i tried so hard i close my eyes to run.....den i saw the gal i liked"....full of cock bullsyt guy lol made me think....makes me a joke man...

to me dat was sth he will nv get....but it reali shows how much dedication he has...his motivation and mayb sum1 truely dear to him...but seriously he's so cock he wun get a gal even though he will be rich cos he's smart...lol

so wat about me...wats left?

i guess itx nt my fault...i dun care...i'm flying off soon to a land i've nv been to not like i'm interested to go there...itx gng to b hell itx gng to be bullshyt.....how i wish sum stray bullet just injure me or mayb even kill me....a long term attend C den down pes hahax...

i'm not interested in making new friends nw...like long term for life friends...i feel dat i haf enuf....i'm satisfied wif just tis 2 groups of friends i haf...

haha the song of freedom....duno y...itx still tis song...lan tian by huang yi da...reali gifs me the state of mind dat itx in a blue clear sky...

so draggy so painful...i hate things tis way...im effing impatient

it 2 different mindsets 2 different mentality nw......

i cant stand the new songs dat r coming out nw...hahax guess dats the reason y i stop listeing to radio....no more slow and emo songs....and nw i am listening to nan guo by 5566 how many donkey years was dat ago...haha...

steamboat cancelled...FUCK

omg green tea mint tastes gd man but it screwing my tummy up...

and wats tis emotion called?3 alphabhets...the emotion humans feels most of the time...SAD

last day

2008-12-02T02:44:00.000-08:00

cant believe 20 days just pass like dat...wat the...its te end nw and the start of a new life..deicded to go to proma t the last min...omg...it was reali rush and the stuff just anihow buy plus i reali did not wan to spend much money buying the things it reali sucked...

thx to alvin lum whu managed to rescue me...lol

prom was okay many pretty gals..LOL and the pics made me realise how fat i am....guess i shoudlnt upload them lol imbal fat la...there was one wif richie dat showed an obvious contrast...

aft dat had a hard time deciding on where to go..but finally dcided to vist the njc pple at butter factory...a CLUB

i dun tink i'm ever gng to a club in the near future...mayb i am not suited for it..itxx reali for party animals...the music is loud till the floor and walls shaking...wtf wtf...cant take it..too loud...but got many free shows la see le quite farni..lol

jiarong got drunk...omg was dancing on the road whenw e ere on the way home...farni...he was toking weirdly oso..

the last gd bye guys...see all around in 2 and half weeks..hopefully i will haf lost 5kg by den..haha though dat wun be enuf..mayb i can do the required ull up and get out of there...i'll be a gd boy...and listen...

6 days

2008-11-27T07:12:00.000-08:00

guess i'll be blogging more for the next 6 days...just 6 days left...am i emo about it?no....am i scared about it?yes but not yet....haha it was quite fun huh....just a bit expensive..

lets tok bout sth more optimistic...bball chalet..bbq was normal..more den enuf food...but as usual our fire cmi...lol den on top of the food some kids gave us more...they were nxt to us..and one of them was eileen's sister....i heard sum1 call me and i turn bak...den i was like whu is tis uh.....but i just wave back and sae hi....aft like 10 s den i remeber it was eileen's sister....she has grown to be mature and pretty according to bernard...

den there was the drinking game....wat the...calvin sabo me...told everione to...itx quite a fun game actuali...i drank quite a bit....vodaka vanilla wif sprite...not a match trust me...taste like antibiotics..beer is still the best!!ah peh style..lol so it was mr and mrs chia sabo-ing alex to drink and drink......and of cos my best friend medin whu made me drink loads...

played poker aft dat...wasnt fun....oh well i dun tink alcohol helps to relief ur stress and problems...dat chinese saying...itx so fake cos i just kept on tinking about pointless things...lost in poker me n medin...suay kias..LOL tis sucks huh....den they go slp liao wat the wat the wat the rite..all play a while nia den go slp liao imbal imbal imbal...den can stone nia...so medin mk ber n me left in the morning by taxi!!!to home....reach home at 7 plus...couldnt slp...fuck it....den 1 plsu wake up le...

after xome persuasion by zhen kai i decided to gof or the class bbq....all the boys gng ma...go see my ffriendss...oh well 4j did seem a bit more bonded today...

i nid a song to suit my mood now...i like songs according to my mood...wooots i'm emofied

i tink i'm feeling better now...lol....

i am logical person u noe i noe somethings r totally impossible...but there always exists some part of me dat is gng against logic....angel vs devil....

i wish i had sum1 to tok to...sum1 to gif me advice...but i wonder anione dat will be able to help me...and gif some advice dat will aid me....i doubt anione understands tis...in the end itx still myself....and i haf to find a way out myself...

me myself and nobody else..i noe wat to do....

i screw my own life....yupz...filled wif mistakes wif regrets..

fuck tis i noe it my own fault fuck this and dat....am so vexed..i wish sum1 can tok to me

yo

2008-11-24T07:43:00.000-08:00

i duno wassup wif u tis time...LOL tis sucks.....concentrate......although nth is ahead...
dun be affected by tis n dat....lolllll....oh my god oh my god...wassup dude....

went to watch madagascar 2 today....it was so damn boring boring boring...i waste 6 bucks..heng itx 6 bucks....lol den went to mk hse aft dat...play mahjong n lose alot...tio own totally...heng they play poker..den i won some back...dam lucky....

and i wonder wat will happen if u fly to australia....oh well...

dun tink too much it is just a coincidence no link u noe it urself...

army will mean living a whole new life...

somethings r impossible

few days more

2008-11-23T05:06:00.000-08:00

few more days must go army liao wat the imbal la
imbal la i was tinking bout it laz nite
wat the tis is imbal tis is imbal

i feel like a loser kip playing game the whole day like a no life kia i cant wait for 2 years to be over i dunwan to go army zz itx like a jail seriously...

dun wry i guess i am having fun.....for tis few days...

some1 got reali sick and cant go out....cant spend the last few days wif me lol...siansiansiansiansiansian

things not gng reali well hope in the end u can stay :)

hope i did well for A lvls LOL

last day le wor

2008-11-12T04:04:00.000-08:00

2ml last day and the most hardcore day which will determine my future but i dun feel like studying so GG icant force myself to study....reali...aft econs today many brain cells were dead..it was not dead easy but do-able...i like dng it..i enjoyed both econs papers regardless of how hard they were...they test ur tinking ur application...not geog not hist when u dun remeber sth u die...

for econs i cant dun remeber much but stil write a reasonable amount!!i'm enjoyed the econs papers the most.....

human geog and int hist 2ml it will be a perfect ending if the question i love comes out...i'm scared of one human essay but i'm sure i can do ALL permutations of the population part...but urban will be hard....haha....

INT hist i'm banking on Cold War and global economy...i gif up on conflict...itx hard....hope rise of Japan is out u noe....how jap economy rise so fast aft WW2 when it was so bombed...u noe y?i do...

LOL....study til mad alreadi...was vandalising my econs notes today when i was supppose tob e studying...lets pwn 2ml man...lets do it...dun guai lan alreadi pls...tis year is reali one hell of a weird year osa lvls papers...so diff from past years paper i attempted...Eff tis shyt...but i can do it...wo shi tian cai i'm smart...lol...

cant wait to play bball....

2ml will be a hard day...reali hard...not easy..i'm damn stressed...but i cant study..

day 1

2008-10-31T07:50:00.000-07:00

it was bad SEAsian hist....they said it was okay but i guess it was damn tough....the SBQ suck big time i din haf any ck for it reali nth...could only cross reference...damn sad...plus one of my source is wrong?haixxx

the essays...out of 3 i only knew 2 k...the last one i reali dunoh ow to do...the case studies din match at all...GG le....i was suppose to score in tis...

mayb itx too many pratice mayb i've been tru too many exams..i felt numb..i din feel excited or nervous...i took the paper just like it was nth....i duno y...itx reali a bad sign a bad start....

history toys wif me...literally...it has been my ONLY better subject during the sec sch days...sth i was proud of...regardless of the As i got for it...it turned out to be a B3...dat was one sad thing..

i' worried i got a feeling i just re gurgitated i din link...i noe i din...haix...

itx happening again...guess what today happen to be a bad day for me...no 18 no 19...can i scrape an A...or even a B

tomorrow

2008-10-30T07:06:00.000-07:00

it starts tomorrow...i'm half rdy half prepared and dat equates to an A

14 days 9 papers....

i'm gng to spendddd like mad gng to take taxi to sch for every 8am paper...lol.....

lets gooo a gd nite's slp..

all the best everyone

1 day

2008-10-29T03:46:00.000-07:00

at this period of time i dun tink alot of pple uses the com...i look at my msn contact list and dun see much pple just like 25 pple not much eh...i duno how can pple study so long for me itx like only 4 hours per day?LOL okay dats wat make me so different from my RV friends dats y i am in JJC

i look at stanley's nick when he was toking to me..y gif up?right i'm left wif sumtimes to brush up my content and i hope i haf a gd day during the exams...okok i noe his nick probably wasnt for me...but still it set my brain into motion

so aft A lvls i'll play bball wif stanley and whoever is avaliable tink ask the juniors since only I finish the paper so early...mayb will haf some seniors oso?cant wait to play again...

1st paper SEAsian history i'll score on a gd day dats wat miss mardiana always says...19 on a gd day 15-16 on a bad day lol...okay i'll make tis friday a gd day i'll get higher for SEAsian to make up for INT hist flaws...

read the question properly...phrase ur arguement to answer it..pour the correct content and dat makes an A

lets not repeat the mistakes during prelims for human geog for hist for econs....read the question...answer it....

2 days

2008-10-28T01:37:00.000-07:00

A lvls coming i'm not prepared at all...told my mum she was like dun stress me out man....lol i tot i should be the one stressed but i duno i guess i can do it...itx scary...but i cant remeber the sutff for more den 1 day so i tink i'll study a bit later...

went to the airport ytd...whoosh wasted half a day...but at the airport theres always tis special feeling...time is like ehhhh forever like u haf all the time in ur life...although dat is not true...but itx a nice feeling if u wan to study leh...just sit there and let time pass it like living in another world...i kinda of like dat feeling...if it wasnt so far i wold haf gone there to mug everyday..

watching episode 14 now..had to skip the earlier parts...so boring...bout lies and sacrifice...for a selfish person like me i wun do it...okay so W has cancer...and i haf 3 weeks...lol

3weeks end of a lvls...i feel i can do it...but i felt like dat many times too and failed myself...nvm aft As i haf 20 days i can play basketball and computer games and enjoy myself...

went to visit the juniors the other day....hahax itx so fun having juniors to crap wif....sad i wil be missing the chalet...

mayb self belief was the thing i haf been lacking..

3rd december..

2008-10-22T06:44:00.000-07:00

3rd december itx cfm...wtf rite...i tot can postpone but my mum called and asked and the guy sae cant but the book says yes?must b a darn slacker lor...

nvm i'm sccepting the fact dat my holiday is only lasting 20days..aft dat shave yet slp wif ghosts...zzz hope nth wrong happens..i'll be a gd kid and listen to he officers and dun get into trouble...let the 3 weeks pass den can go home once....yupz dats all i hope for....tinki should be able to survive wats wrying me is the supernatural stuff...

itx a bit earlier isnt it???tis suckss...aniwae i havent been reali studying much my objective is to read finish the syallabus...omg army leh...totally ut off from civilisation and itx the ultimate relationship test..dun u tink so?

1 and a half years...oh well...

mythbuster rocks...damn nice...so interesting...elephants r reali scare of mice u noe?

lol and boon send me a msg by mistake..damn farni la...okay i must protect his privacy...but itx son a not boon msg?lol....okay pay me 5 bucks and i will show u wat boon sent...hahaha

whu's gng to the airport wif me on friday...zzz

sunday

2008-10-19T00:06:00.000-07:00

sunday is suppose to be happy sunny and just great..mine is just the opposite..itx raining nw and i'm home alone the 1st time i'm afraid of the thunder?itx bloody loud and i'm 70 percent sure itx gng to trip and i will haf to go and swtich on the electric thing myself..

i like being home alone..but not when itx suppose to be sunny and itx so dark and rainy..

mugging hasnt been reali great..but i;m gng to do a couple of essays ltr...

enlisting in the 3rd of december...wtf rite...damn stress becos of tis i was quite carefree when there was only just a lvls in mind...now i haf tis...i'm damn stress?dats for being fat man...zzzonly lifeline left is to pass napfa?2ml den call and us it the route is stil possible..anyway things havent been gng veh well...

some times i just wish to gif up on everyth....

okay 4 hist essays...gota finish them b4 gng to consultation 2ml...gota do some geog too....hmmmmalrite time to work hard...lets forget the army things for now....and all the other crappp

i can gif up on everyth nw but not the a lvls

lan qiu huo

2008-10-14T00:53:00.000-07:00

how touching...the 12 episode....couldnt resist it even though there was such a heavy workload...so touching yet itx not the end we want....for me i like lou zhi xiang more he's cute handsome and interactive...instead of jerry who is just coll and boring...

oh boy this ending sucks...wonder if it will still end at episode 13 just like specualtors sae...but things seems to have come to an end already...so perharps the last episode it just exposing of all the secrets between the family and qiu gui stuff...

oh the preview proves my stand....hmmmmm doesnt look like itx gng to end though still got wu zhun havent come out..

okay gng to slp and so some work ltr....u just cant resist a nap when itx raining can u?

ai yi ge ren bu jian de yao de dao ta kan ta xingfu kuai le jiu ke yi le...my pin yin is gd
loving someone doesnt mean you need to have him/her looking at him/her enjoying is good enuff

work work...2 weeks left...

2 weeks

2008-10-12T02:57:00.000-07:00

after tis wkend...itx like 2 weeks for a lvls for me...think i'm repeating the mistakes i made during the o lvls...wats impt for an arts student like me is to ensure they information are at my finger tips...dat means a thorough reading and understanding of the syllabus

itx damn hard....i din draw up a timetable.so itx quite screwed...gota finish hydrology today...and SBQ SEA....lets hope i can do it..history and geog are actually very beneficial for gp..u candraw examples from thhere and construct a GP essay..2 2H As.....come on lets do it...

i still nid help for maths..zzzzzzzzzzz h1 maths...how dumb can i get..

took a nap at 12 plus lol...aft breakfast lke pig...wanted to enjoy the feeling of relaxation....kip wanting to wake up and start working due to awakening of my conscience...it din reali work but i'm trying hard now..gng thru the things i duno for geog...hmmmm

went to TCC for the 1st time in my life....ouch is the only word to describe it...but the ambience was great..i wun mind gng bak again to do some work...but i'm caffeine vulnerable...zzz drink coffee den cant slp...

thurs

2008-10-09T06:30:00.000-07:00

skip sch today...zzz

had a bad dream..i got A B B den my maths and GP got D den i duno why the hell got chinese i get S lol...and i alreadi have a B4 for higher chinese rite y got such a bad dream...oh well i cant get 2 Bs i nid another A and my maths must get A and my gp can get C rite?

hist A
geog/econs A/B..havent decide to pia which
maths A
gp C
simple grades for a simple man

today wasnt bad i did quite a bit of geog...gng to finish it ltr

2ml gng to sch for 2 consultations...no lessons..waste time...and slp..i love to slp..itz gorgeous....i use to laugh at pple whu said their hobby was slping..but i understand y nw..

by slping more u lose more weight too...lol i nid loads of them den

no more bball on friday...dats quite sad for me...i tot it was reali fun....saturday is quite fun too..i mean i cant be studying 24/7 juz taking one nite off is not bad..i nid the exercise...tried to go for a jog today...the floor was too wet...so i tried to train my chin up..and did some situps den went home..according to hocksing must do alot of situps to jian fei...so i tink i shall do some everyday...start with 100 1st ba...dats like damn little...but i wonder if i can do it

2ml go to sch for SEAsian revision..

hope everyth is fine nw..

為什麼人要這麼的脆弱墮落請你打開電視看看多少人為生命在努力勇敢的走下去

some description some solutions somethings to keep things gng on

onward we march..i'm not turning back.

tues

2008-10-07T04:31:00.000-07:00

pass by on the bus to sch today...wasnt in my view..a sense of guilt of sadnesss rushed thru me...

went jogging ytd...decide it was the best form of relaxation..exercise...it was a short jog... i din noe wat to sae...reali so i decided not to sae anyth...din send any msgs..oh boy suck tis

spoke to alvin things seem fine...

skip gp today....duno i go sch for wat...geog only perarps..2ml gng to skip gp AGAIN tink i'm applying for study break soon..i dun see the point waking up so early...getting myself all tired and unable to study...

bought a book today...it was ex...25 dollars...it was another chapter of the boy genius Artemis Fowl for me....of cos it invovled fairies...

i nid new shoes...

gold is power /information is power...i choose gold

wish i could live the life of such a genius....money brains crime

watever dat has happen lets leave it behind...for one feel lucky dat u haf not been blessed wif gd memory

whines

2008-10-06T03:10:00.000-07:00

i bet everione went other den me..

fucked up....i hate tis kind of feeling

i cant tink of the consequences...u dun care bout ur teammate uh?y u nv go?y ur mum dun let...

mayb i've been caring too much bout wat others think....chills....

medin says he looks okay..i guess so...hope he stays strong...a lvls juz so near

skipped sch today...

knee stop hurting...hope nth serious..

fuck tis

fragile

2008-10-05T07:54:00.001-07:00

life is so fragile....

itx so sudden i din expect sth so sudden i felt sth amiss when i saw him today....the one dat exudes the aura..it was sth solemn today...when all of us settle down....he told us...vernon medin wan yi n me...it was reali sth veh sudden and sad...and i din expect it..

another friend...another loss

on court u haf been strong among us u haf been one of the most sensible and hardworking....itx hardship and pain i can nv understand...i noe u stand strong...i hope u will tide thru it...

i dun understand this...god is so harsh so cruel...those staunch belivers i can only called them disillusioned individuals...look at wat he has done...taking one was not enuf he took both when all are young...how r they gng to tide thru tis...i reali wonder how....but ber said there was a guardian in place...i hope so...

i tot i haf been strong looking at things i understanding how they feel but this is reali sth painful and horrible...

i feel like one useless teamate...my mum says i cant attend due to some temple obligations...she insisted and i saw no point aruging...

and there she goes again...."listen to wat i sae hor i not jking...itx serious u better dun go 2ml"..oh well...

i understand y he din tell us..itx not sth u love to share....

stay strong to battle the alvls....

loser mentality

2008-10-01T03:43:00.000-07:00

seriously u r juz a loser in life u tink u r always rite?dats like crap cos look at ur lousy answers in the various subjects n u noe u r not always rite

guess wat the class cant stand u they ignore u i tink u deserve it n guess wat he tinks he is rite he call us 'names' in his so innocent and WHITE blog...wat a JOKE seriously the more u tink of it the more i get pissed and cant help but laugh at u

u tink u r famous and popular but wats really happening is the clear opposite u haf no one to sit with during breaks can only buy food and eat food and sit ALL by urself ALONE

and he tries to hide this by acting cool with his big headphones which he loves to show off on his big white head itz quite sad seriously...yupz imagine dat sight itz quite a joke

haha guess what...wif him sitting infront and trying to ask STUPID questions and lame questions the people behind juz sits behind and gif dat sian diao and du lan bin means asking u to stfu and stop acting smart

last year we du blame him becos he nids to do it cos of AP active participation w/o which constitutes 5-10percent i cant remember so he's just like the case of hermione if u ask me but a dumb one answering wrongly stubbornly tinking he is correct..JOKE

he can cricticize and act as much but theand it has been answered? truth is known by the rest of us wat u call infidels...oh my god...joke seriously tis kind of pple cmi....u can crticize and blame all of us when everione dislikes u..so itz our fault?speaks alot bout his ego and intelligience lvl

ultimate bootlicker dat is desperate to fit in...me and wx read wat comics u wan to follow...HA
we play viwawa u oso wan chup my mum plays viwawa and u oso ask ur mum to chup???LOLLLLLLL nah mayb u only haf ur mum to play wif...sad case dun cry

dman farni i was listening to jay's new song dao xiang den got the cricket(how to spell) sound rite den the nxt momeny got one jump on my table...wth?mayb itx a mating call lol and it has been answered?

broke

2008-09-20T01:25:00.001-07:00

oh welll i'm broke..sian

almost walked into the gals toliets today...wth.....

thank the library security guard man....mayb he tinks i'm a pervert..LOL

i've been coughing for 1 month now....irritating..

not like she/we offended u or wat it was juz a friendly hi n the reply was like dao...i dun understand...not like she did anyth...oh well

problems

2008-09-11T03:33:00.000-07:00

alrite be strong stand up...lets sae i din prepare for econs at all but guess wat i was dat damn confident of not only passing but oso of getting like a B or C i got an E aft totalling up 51.3

wat a joke...i was sad reali i din expect such a bad grade....i failed ESSAYS for the 1st time....i got 13 12 and 10...wtf...case study saved my ass...nxt to me...u were even more sad la huh expecting an A but u din reali study oso..so cheer up...

history..i wonder how i wil get over it?hope it not so bad...a C pls a gd C

did u ask or consult..i wonder...i'm quite unhappy over it...but oh well... okay I"M SAD over it..damn

there was this survey we took...are u proud of ur sch?sry i answered no..LOL

lan qiu huo...oh my...gng end liao 6 more episodes to go..wonder y so lil episodes the start of episode 7 is like so weird....so xingfu to haf 2 pple loving u...rawar dun u wish u was dong fang xiang..rich handsome n playing bball well...everyth i wanted...

a fight ensue and it was ME dat laid the groundwork for it...but i wasnt involved..duno y sia i am like so heng or smart?guess wat u juz got ostracized by us for wat u did for taunting and saying dat...

skipping sch..econs lessons are crap and civics..not looking forward to it..so wat for go to sch for nth..

emo

yo

2008-09-09T01:26:00.000-07:00

i would like u to recall the number of times u haf said it to me..to finally start studying...i remeber it many times in those rv days...common tests...end of year exams....and nv once did u reali put ur mind into it...nv...

not even up till now....2 years into an institution u noe u will perish in if u do not rely on urself and do your own revision....and once again the results has proven themselves...

here u do not speak abouts passes..what u should be concentrationg on is aces...none...

you r not sad u r not emotional...u hide ur disappointment well...and so did i...

itx tuesday and u receive 2 pieces of results...maths 56-2=54...u were honest to go to the teacher to get that mistake corrected...well it mayb a blessing in disguise...you are changing a new class...away from this irresponsible teacher...going 20mins late into lessons each time...n cant understand a word he speaks..he's the HOD of h1 maths...talk about meritocracy..

today perharps was the more disappointing one....true indeed u din study much for it but no excuse to be getting 55...deep inside u noe its one of the easiest subject for ur calibre...human geog..juz crap..juz common sense...itz juz sad...veh sad to be securing such results when u haf been topping this subject for the year...

alex wat happen to u why did u do so badly tis time...yeaps itx ringing in ur mind wat ur teacher juz said...

i cant wait to see your econs results...u din study for both case study and essay...i wonder wat will happen...i hope it turns out well...

hist is a goner...i duno

so alex itx time to wake up...will u do it tis time den...the so called toughest hurdle....the A lvls

i'm gng to get an A for geog in the Alvls and it will be juz one of the 3As i haf

alone

2008-09-04T08:29:00.000-07:00

sian my hols veh boring...most r mugging for prelims den no one to play wif me cos i finish my prelims alreadi...always got like 3 pple only me sg and medin den nid one more...always dun haf..zzz

now i haf to spend a few days alone...zzz hope she comes back safely!

lets see things havent been gng very welll today but itx over...still sick...damn it...sai la...hate being sick...too fat liao dats y so weak...

so tis week was like spend money week...haf been gng to the arcade and eating expensive things...today for instance was one pain day...went to chong qing steamboat restaurant which i found on the internet...it was at bugis there...had a hard time finding it...and tinking bak i rather not haf found it...1850 per person..ouch...but the food was reasonable and it was definitely enjoyable...there was fish and beef which were excellent!!

den went for some gelato ice cream and headed bak home den she flew off =( aniwae the msg juz came dat she arived safely..

okay there was an enjoyable ytd too..went to cine e2max and played wii...it was 1150 per hour...we played only and hour...let me tell u the wii is a definite must haf it was so freaking fun...damn fun i reali considered buying one myself..seriously i went to comics connection to haf a look and the salesman was engaged wif a customer...so i stood thre n listen a bit..but wat i wanted to noe was the price la huh but i din get it..

get a wii everione itx damn fun damn fun...the grapics mayb juz normal but it seriously a step towards virtual reality fun

den went to gloria jeans to slack...so dats bout it...like boom more den 50 bucks one

gota find sth to do 2ml seriously i must stop slacking...cs doesnt seem to be dat fun animore...dun tink i wil be addicted to it animore...they way to cure addictions is to cut the supply!

dwell on it

2008-08-31T07:33:00.000-07:00

sometimes i reali cant help tinking bout the mistake i made for the last paper..if i had juz read the question for another min...zz

life is so boredddd now?aft prelims dun haf anyth to do...no where to go oso leh...i reali duno where to go liao not the type of romantic and creative kind...so life is juz a big BORE now...

friday is interesting when u try to impersoante the best player in the world...dats wat 'I' did aft scoring dat 3 point foul in..LOL

so we haf been trying to do it the KOBE way u noe aft he said"the 3 point line is too near" during the olympics...i hit a few during the start of tis gimmick but aft dat lose power liao lol...itx damn funnnnnnn

okay i wonder where i should go 2ml...so boring mayb start studying for maths la hor...H1 summore oh my wat a loser..cant even pass it..

life is so complicated

i'm sick agn...i believe itx due to the person whu was coughing nonstop during the hist test sitting beside me...for one thx for breaking my train of thoughts for 2 th for giving me this though my immunity system is oso questionable...

itx over

2008-08-27T02:09:00.000-07:00

itx over the prelims dat some dread while i juz take quite in my stride...okay overall feel is that gp and maths are goners i wun be able to keep my posiion for geog...theres goes a B and econs i'm quite optimistic...C?

juz finish history today....for SEAsian was quite bad...laz nite i din slp a wink not becos i was studying but i juz couldnt slp...duno y...so i ended up taking the paper feeling amn groggy...haixxx sbq was a flop i wrote half page den redo...den came the last essay..i was dng fine u noe keeping within the 45 mins marks...it was down to the last...i wrote 1 page le...i reread the ques 3 times and decided i was out of point..left wif 25 mins i decided i shall do the other ques since it was like i duno how to do the current ques...

so i attempted sth which i wasnt veh confident in....aft the test did i realise that wat i actuali wrote was actuali coorrect...haix...if i did dat i would haf easily gotten a B damn sure....oh dam it...it quite sad la...25 mins on an essay...no time de...haix my B another one fly...

i din study for econs at all

i did geog briefly

i did hist briefly

popiiiiiii

watching lan qiu huo and feeling frigging tired...tink i wil go n shower n slp soon...now all the show revolves along love triangles and the different in status...always the same..always touching too...itx nice too..mayb juz a lil short..heard itx only 13 episodes..i shall enjoy life for a few days..like a week??dan i shall study....

so the shows tells the rich pwns the poor...and of cos the question of which female lead is prettier...lol the coach W or the young student jie er...but the portryal of chracter reali puts W at the losing end and she looks too old...jie er is juz pretty cute and innocent...haha

cant wait for tis friday to come hope it wun rain..

prelims

2008-08-20T04:22:00.000-07:00

prelims is of no significnace to me...i duno y...not like i still haf a lot of time left...but i'm confident..i tink i can finish it in a month...the easier subjects are int hist and econs only?lol...okay...the pain in the ass is actually all the other subjects..

okay so 2out of 4 failures now...i din do well for physical geog but i gues i can pass...zzz i can do well for it de or...the stupid trade winds...i was too fast too judge...too rash le la..go home n tink den i remember...grrr nvm..

aft dat when to town to get a present...it din come cheap...a ripcurl jumper..lol was deciding between a addidas orginal and another girl ripgurl jumper but the ipcurl wasnt dat nice...so i went to the guys side and found a veh nice and cool one....but dun haf the size...but heck la i juz buy it...cos it was damn nice?but i doubt can fit la....itx too big...den i went down and saw the addidas original one again...it looked dam nice..zzzzz...i tink itx the avaliability of the size there?oh welll if too big den go change ba...ah well itx friday but itz alrite to disclose here..hope she likes it...and hope it will be a SURPRISE

int hist 2ml..havent reali study alot leh..duno how..still got SBQ and the start of CW....and theres USA mach ltr wooots...YAO lost..how sad..if u r injured den dun play ba...pointless dragging ur mates along...theres Bolt to look forward to ltr too..if everyth thing goes well he's gona get his double...and team USA will win Australia and i hope kobe does sth greatttt finally

cant wait for friday..ur birthday and i get to play bball again...lol...

friends

2008-08-17T01:00:00.000-07:00

had my ears plugged to those very old songs i like..i guess itx becos i grew up listening to them, the ones we got me started listening to music..i know them so well even aft this years dat i can still remember the lyrics...i stop my geoging and start thinking agn

i look like a serious joker but i myself think that i am a thinker..haha when i'm alone quiet in my own world i juz go into thoughts...okay i tink itx becos of the old songs that make u reminisince

i was reading geog so my first tot was geog..even geog as a subjects shows me being different from the elites?in RV i remeber everione studying hard for physical geog they said it was much easier compared to human geog...of 4 essay questions pple usually do 3 physical 1 human...

i concentrated on human geog instead..i reali couldnt take physical geog memorizing all those stuff..human geog was a like a breeze not much to memorize and quite common sensical i reali did like geog den it was easier compared to sci and maths....the mcq were like 50-50 to me and i happen to scored my ONLY A wif it A2 summore...lets not take chinese into the pic la huh...

so smart pple chose sci while i chose arts...was it the rite choice?a definte yes for me..but theres stil physical geog stil SEAsian hist dat nids memory work...life would not haf been so hard so embarrassing so unhappy if i had a choice to leave out the sci subjects during the o lvls...never?juz excuses for being lazy

it suddenly popped into my mind wat u said "if u had a galfriend u wun be toking to me animore"
i said, no i will it wun reali matter or affect or anyth but u were so sure i could sense it..but no dats untrue other circumstances played the role

we use to be friends whu could understand each other..to me it was a feat...we were veh much 'cyber' friends we din reali noe each other well in real life...but we juz clicked most of the time u helping me out...lol...but i guess i was good too!

i wonder why i haf this split personality...in reality and on msn...itz juz 2 different personality...so wat am i...i love to help pple on msn watever the situation was..haha tis side of me had been rather rare i guess i dun initiate conversations in short i dun chat wif pple on msn..it has become quite useless...

pple judge u by wat u do in real life not wat u do on msn...so itx a fair judgement on me...i understand my personality..i make more enemies den friends...yet the only group of friends i am reali comfortable wif are reali those whu had gone thru the 4 years of sweat and pain tgt...or mayb sumtimes when i am playing basketball wif those i noe...which usually happens to be the same group of pple..lol

i enjoy those moments when pple used to share their problems wif me...itx always gd to lend a listening ear rite?and help pple out of their troubles..i still remember a few cos there were not reali much of these situation la hor...uhh time to go back to studying geog..2 years here...wat friends haf i made?

few i guess and none dat i am reali comfortable wif...there was one i reali wished to help..but no..itx pain dat i had not gone thru..sth so sudden...yet i tink i wil b ale to cope wif it...itx due to my extreme selfishness

i seriously suspect i haf mild autism..

i guess i was taken aback due to a cetain sense of shunning..

i dun like to bug pple...dun like to tok to them or help them if not i will be seen as being overly curious being a busybody being kpo...cos i hate tis kind of pple n dunwan to be one of them..therefore when pple show any sign of reluctance itx likely dat i wun tok to them agn...

oh well i guess as usual...only i noe wat i am toking about again...those whu decipher are PRO

thx jiarong for sending me all the jay songs but wat i reali wanted was feng only?lol...

so wat haf i lost becos of the development of a relationship?

friends...an alternative listening ear...chances to make friends...to play basketball..opportunity costs..haha..

itx sad to see sum1 to so suffer dat doesnt deserves it and to make it worse receive no help...dun u tink so?

i thank the songs for giving me the chance to look back at things...

army-phobic

2008-08-10T04:49:00.000-07:00

i juz reali dun wish to go i wish i broke aleg or sth right aft the a lvls or diagnose wif color blind or sth i reali dunwan to go now...i cant imagine wat will happen...as we tok about it now the mood is always gloom itx not the ghostly stuff it wat will happen to use aft 1 and a half years...for the first like 15 weeks i wun be able to come out dat make up to around 4 months...and den aft dat u can only leave for a day every week....haixx problems problems...i duno wat to do

itx tis week my prelims but i not not even studying i'm dun belong to those hypocrites dat study and sae they dun...i reali din...i wonder wat will happen...but i guess i'll be fine...

god gif me a solution to tis problem pls

how?

2008-08-06T07:07:00.000-07:00

59/100 58/100

oh my god oh my gawd itx the subject i happe to like the most but den again not reali wat i like is the sutdy ofCold War not the rise of the global economy the rise of japanese economy nor is it about SEA history which is so 'content full' itx scary i wonder how i should be able to finish it...aniwae the results are not acceptable

on the lighter note mr hendri haf pointed out my mistakes and i kinda of know the way of writing an 18/25 essay now?i hope i can do it...i juz tink he has been a brillant teacher veh sociable caring and always protecting us and getting us out of trouble...

haf been travelling to the library daily but dng nth?itz reali bad but aft getting bak my int hist results today i reali felt the nid and the urge to start?prelims start nxt week but i am not panicking i duno y...other JCs start much ltr and the students r alreadi in full force le...

wat bout me?i feel rdy for econs?application is nth i'm only afraid of the content question u noe like describing watever theory or structure...geog?i wonder how am i gng to do it seriously juz read once and go for the test?itz the likely strategy for now..i'm reali jealous of those whu haf photographic memory...

hist!i believe i can do INT in a day but SEA will be a chore lets see wat we can do bout it??maths i kinda of gif up due to our maths teacher's greatness

GP is reali of my concern my GP sucks i nid help mr hendri asked me to approach her for help but i wonder...to me language has always been sth teachers cant help me wif to e it was always about fitnesse i tot i had it but itx not there animore?itx reali sad to see it gng downhill

to the library 2ml!i bet work will be done when i am alone?

woots

2008-08-03T03:53:00.000-07:00

had a wonderful friday whheeeee playing bball wif rvbball is veh much different very...enjoyed it a lot and itx quite addictive wish tis can happen frequently...

i tink u r a joke everything i do u wana try to compete wif me to me itx veh disgusting for one u r juz following ewww er xin laaaaaaaaaaaaa i cant stand it when i tink of it like juz trying to compete wif u i dun nid it juz siam mann okay it was juz a veh simple thing like i play game wif a person X he nids to follow suit cos mayb he tinks me n him r hitting off well he cant take it and wans to be part of it...puiiii rite???okay another scenario when a bhnch of us r chatting he will come along and she mo wat u all sawe and trys to chup in sumtimes we will juz ignore him...LOL it juz keeps happening puiiiiii...i salute u for gng to tuition for mugging hard but u r so far behind i turn bak and i cant see u nosey parker teachers' ass sucker award winner

study break!break from all this things wonder when i will start studying...2ml is a bad start got hist things...zzz lan qiu huo sth to look forward to?tink it wil be better den dou niu ba not so much love n stuff...juz more bball

blood was drawn

2008-07-31T03:30:00.000-07:00

oh my god i donated blood for the first time in my life today and it was a horendous experice...i forgot i din eat lunch den iw ent to donate and told the doc i taken one already den came the testing and the needle part which was oohh scary i hated needles...den i was so nervous den nerve kip jumping and the nurse kip missing...wat the okay den dat was juz the pain killers....but the big thing wasnt pain

okay den came the drawing blood part the nurse told me b4 hand kip squeezing my fist for the veins to come out den i din noe itz 5-10 sec once aft u insert the needle...in less den 3 mins the bag was almost full..pple usually take 7-10mins

okay den i felt like vomitting?but i chose to ignore cos the nurse said gng to finish....but i finally couldnt take it animore when my vision blurred...the nurse kinda of overreacted?she took out the needle and den the doc came n i had to lie down n was kinda blacking out but i was find aft a few tests..damn malu?had to lie there for like 20 mins and everione was waiting for me

it damn pai seh cos so mani of my classmates donated and nth happen to them...they waited for me n we took a pic tgt...quite farni...n i quite suay cos the nurse was the only one there dat was so stern and unfriendly the rest of the nurse were like all so happy and cheerful...suay uh

she was like i expected this to happen becos u kip chatting wif ur friends blahblahveins kip jumping bal blha u suppose to concentrate blahblah oh wth..come on la y so unfriendly..dude cheerup

okay tis week was full of surpirises wed skip sch and wasnted to go to sch at 1 for photot taking but it change to 1240 n we couldnt enter sch cos there will be JAILING oh my god so our dear civivs tutor came to save us..how nice of him

okay gota do my SEAsian essay now..

oh i saw calvin chia today duno wats up wif his hair...2 possibilities..he play basketball till mad so anihow cut....his hair broke the rules andthe DM cut it for him....dat was how bad it was...

tired

2008-07-25T05:06:00.000-07:00

haf reali been suffering from the lack of slp...itx reali hard to concentrate nw...got to like train myself or sth if not when the A lvls come i'll be dead...

mock prelims is a serious oke okay i tink it only applies to maths...3 hours is like a bit too much even if i knew how to do the paper...din study much ix gng to b quite impossible to pass but will the teacher mark?this irresponsible HOD is late for lesson by 15 mins when itx the first lesson n den spends 20 mins setting up his laptop cos he duno how to?lol HOD okay earning taxpayers money...wat a waste a total waste...

history consultation agn today...my linguistic ability reali sucks?itx not about making normal n simple setnecences...itx easy but how can i write such things leh...of cos it has to b a bit complex??nvm i shall concentrate on clarity nxt time n dun act cheam..

okay den there was International hist wif my dear slackish civics tutor we spend around 45 mins discussing the essays n spend the nxt 30 mins or so discussing about reali random stuff it started wif whu started the arab israeli war..GOD he said lol i was stunned n the diggression begun

a few interesting facts: malays originated from taiwan believe to have come from southern china..

why r jews so rich?the conspiracy states that they were the CHOSEN people and that it was recognized thru islam and christianity the logical theory is that they haf experience years of life and the strngest survive there leading them to gain valuable epxerience and becoming one of the more capable.

okay i'm stun la compared to my other counterparts whu read the bible well okay so y did god started the arab israel conflict he said that it was between 2 people whu were the sons of god and he promised both sons the land of jerusalem i itnk itx reali an intersting place n a few religion reali started from there so mani things that i do not noe that r sooo interesting.

i cant stand bottlickers fakers act 'smarters' and u reali possess all of this undesirable 'qualities'.iPWNu

bleak

2008-07-19T23:46:00.000-07:00

all is so dark dun u tink so?

not in the mood to study...lost it all at this crucial period i noe itx no use juz trying to study now if i dun feel like dng it i wun do it well...econs and maths mock tis coming week i wonder how to handle it...

it sucks to be in this mood lost...duno wat to do totally no sense of motivation dun tell me bout the sch motto pls itx not i embrace the instituition so much...actuali not a bit at all...true it mayb but i possess dat quality i wun be where i am now...

things r starting to fade both literally n not...itx hard for me to go on continously to study w/o chilling out...

wat shall i do?the devil truimphs this time i'm dng nth...dun blame me

approaching As

2008-07-18T05:05:00.000-07:00

eblog disappoints again time to change to blogspot. got 'humiliated during history consultation today...the others r like much better?i shouldnt be in this group...not sure nid to construct my sentence better the thing impeding me is my english i guess i reali lack vocab

so my essay suck yeah nth much tis days i've been travelling to library alone nowadays to studdy?the mugging havent start itx jux like completing my work now havent gone to reali studying of content..i nid to like buff up my content since i'm in arts..

english is reali a problem now my sentence structure is affecting the clarity of my sentences..n my gp is like juz barely making it....B pls i nid a B for gp..

i shouldnt haf gif up on bball as i look back mayb i shouldnt join the team but i could still play it for leisure?haf been dng it for 2 fridays now...itx kinda of additive..but my weight is limiting me alot?lol they sae i look like kungfu panda now...the proportions r a perfect match....had tis pic which i took wif the panda at toy r us but i haf yet to go n get it..lol wil be quite farni tink i go put on friendster or sth..

wonder how long i will last oh well